Dear fellow
travelers,
I received many
"decluttering" return emails, from forced decluttering from floods
and the hardship of losing many precious items, and to decluttering from
downsizing and going thru 30 years of history, and discovering many forgotten
treasures. And To you who thought "it was a good idea".
Their are so many
facets of living and life, and I thank you for sharing yours, from your
perspective and I'm sorry for any hardships, if you have endured any.
For me, I admit,
for a week or so, until a few days ago, I was all over the emotional scale.
A week ago, we came
back from a cruise that left from Baltimore-- destination, the Caribbean!..
This was great, you could be saying-what's your problem?? I agree, what was
it??
Another
decluttering area.... my mind
I have been
"decluttering" my mind, to get to my belief, hence problem.
The trip was great,
the beautiful turquoise water, warm tropical temperatures, spectacular scenery.
And then the night we were returning, we could see snow falling by the windows
by our dinner room table.
I went from
jubilant!, to thinking of the cold, dreading dull days, dark mornings and early
evenings. I know you could be saying, get a grip, winter is not that bad here
in De. and spring is coming, and yes, you may even be a snow bird and just love
the cold.
But for me, I
wasn't there. I felt like I was in an alternate reality, 2" of snow on the
cruise ship lounge chairs. Now Really! 24 hours ago...................
Re entry was not
smooth. Then, when one is in a mental state of turmoil and malaise, like I was,
nothing goes easily. What you resists persists!!
There were all kind
of little cliches. Nothing major.
But then I didn't
need major.
I had many self
inducted commitments immediately after my return, in numerous directions.
I admit it,----- I
was depressed, which doesn't happen often to me.
then I got really
angry at a situation. A step up!! Not a real high, but a little better.
Poor me,
victim!!!!!
Then I had a talk
with me. (and some support from you) What is my belief here, behind my issue,
problem?? Really, what is it. my life, I know is great!!
From my couch ,self
diagnosis-I ascertained; that I did just finished a major project with great
results, that had been months in the studying and doing, I had been excited,
enthusiastic and I had felt empowered. Then the holidays, and the vacation.
AHHH YES, that is
it!! Now what????? The Unknown, the void!!! What is next?? The
waiting for manifestation! I wanted to dig up my seeds of my future journey and
see if they have started to sprout! ! the next horizon!
My more rational
self was saying-- Patience--Relax, all is well!! all is unfolding as it should!
I am on track, after some introspection, but it wasn't fun!!
I am stopping here
about me! and telling you what inspires me about you..
I am so inspirited
by you, you who write so spontaneously, with in depth insight, the flow, the
stream of consciousness, the beauty, do you give yourself credit?
And you, the
artist, your work is you, allowing your deeper self to speak outward in form,
do you give yourself credit?
I am so up lifted
and inspirited by you, whom I call and visit when you are in the hospital, when
in health challenges---: you give me so much inspiration with your positive,
upbeat, attitude and spiritual knowing, that I can only say thank you, for all
I learn from you.
I am following one
artist friend who is going thru a health challenge with her husband and she is
publishing his writings, they are so sensitive, introspective, beautiful, and
spiritual. I can only say thank you to him and her journal.
I truly learn so
much from you. Love you. I care deeply for your courage.
My mind is now
thankfully "decluttered." I have focus. I am here to learn,
and to be grateful for what I learn from you, please don't stop teaching, me.
Life is a journey,
for me to acknowledge publicly, my not so great moments, is a big step for me.
I'm just thankful
there are not that many of them, and that I can tell you, and feel I am still
OK.-- here on my human journey.
Just Pondering on
mind decluttering and acceptance.
Linda Patton, ENTC
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